Seeing Eyes (anyone)

[Knightwarrior™]

Kujostream watched the kits play after they were all done eating. He quietly walked over to sit beside Feathertail. He pressed his pelt into her's as he layed beside her.

[feathertail]

Feathertail felt her mates presence, "Will you tell me the story of why kingdomstreak broke my heart?" she whispered as only little holykit, and gingerkit where left asleep.

[Knightwarrior™]

Kujostream heart tore a bit as Feathertail asked him the question, "I can't Feathertail," he said. He thought of Torsionsoul's words: Make her decide. Give her a final choice, and see where it all goes he shook his head at the thought but decided to ask her anyways.

"Feather," he snapped, a littel surprised at himself, "You need to decide. Do you want kits with me, do you want me? Or would you prefer to be left by yourself with another shattered heart. and live without a mate with new born kits? You need to decide, because I am tired to waiting for you, I love you Feathertail but this relationship will not work without a partner who loves me back" he said.

[feathertail]

Feathertail looked up at kujostream, "I love you more than life kujostream" she whispered, "I just don't want to live with you hiding the truth from me, I want to know why, why wasn't I good enough for him...I love you more than anything, and you leaving would be more than hurt for me, you would be a greater loss rather than kingdomstreak, I love to much to explain to starclan, I've loved you the day we finally met, I just feel like I can't live down that I wasn't good enough for one tom, and if I let down kingdomstreak, then I would let you down" she bent her head, she then looked up at him, "You don't understand the pain if you where me, leaving for awhile and finding that someone was gone one morning with another cat..." she added, "I want kits with you of course but the matter in fact, that I don't want to lose you" she meowed, and stared at the snow falling more heavily now, "I would die, losing you" she meowed, it was true, feathertail wasn't teaching a apprentice how to swim, she was trying to commit suicide, but when she had heard he loved her to much for explainations, she felt the same way about him, she knew she loved him no matter what. Feathertail stared at the falling snow, and then stared at kujostream, "it's your choice to, these are your kits, this is your life to, if you left, I would die, and if you stay I won't hurt and niether would you" she meowed looking up at him, "You can abandon me like kingdomstreak, and these kits and I will have no point to live" she meowed again. That day Feathertail was perposly trying to kill herself and the kits for kingdomstreak, she was depressed, she loved kujostream so much, she loved him more than kingdomstreak, but that day feathertail knew she would die, but she lived for kujostream.

[Knightwarrior™]

Kujostream stared at Feathertail stupidly, he knew she was a suicidal cat but he didn't think she would brin gup the subject. He also didn't believe that she loved him after the first day, if he remembered correctly, she hated him and loved Kingdomstreak. the only reason why he didn't tell her about how Kingdom felt about her was because he promised to keep it a secret.

[feathertail]

" he just felt sorry for me, didn't he" she mewed in a whisper as she watched the snow fall silently, with no sound, "I mean he just felt desprate" she meowed staring him straight in the eyes, "I did love you on the first day, I denied it cause I still loved kingdomstreak, I still had feelings for him, but at the same time, I couldn't deniy that I was starting to love someone who actually loved me..." she trailed off, as little gingerkit squirmed closer into a ball to her mother's stomach, "If you feel I don't love you, you can abandon me, it doesn't matter, I know I've been an awful mate" she meowed as little drops of tears fled from her eyes, "You don't have to lie to me" she meowed again, and watched as sleet came down with a pitter patter, "i just want to know the truth, so I can let him go..." she whispered as a tear feel from her eye, as she stared at the snow. (Gosh this is sad *sniffles*)

[Kingdomstreak]

Kujostream licked Feathertail's tears away and whispered in her ear lovingly, "I will never abandon you dear heart."

[feathertail]

"I don't want to live anymore" she thought, "Kujsostream I can't live with myself anymore, sparrowtail, is going to have kits, and it will only kill me more, I still love kingdomstreak, I can't let him go, I want him to know I still love him...." she trailed off, she knew her fate was closer than ever, "I'm going to die soon..." she whispered as she looked at the soft whie snow, "I won't live long, I just, won't my soul will end up leaving me, I will be nothing here, nothing as I was as nothing ever happen, and I hate kingdomstreak for doing this to me, I didn't deserve such black heartedness, such cruel treatment..." she trailed off, tears streaming out of her eyes, "I don't want to live because of him" she meowed, "I miss him so much, I miss him so much, I just want to be with him, like we use to be, you don't know how much I wish you where him, I just wish I would have one more chance with him, to prove that I loved him..." she whispered her tears streaming her eyes, "I love oyu kingdomstreak" she cried softly, "I love you so much" she whispered her voice trailing off, as she got up, she stared at her mate, she loved him so much, but she couldn't take the pain how kingdomstreak left her, and all she could think aobu that he never cared, and all she feels is like a low down dog, feathertail couldn't live again, he never knew what damage he had done to her, he never knew, he had taken every peice of love she had, even though she love kujostream so much, life wasn't going to get better, everyone she knew either abandoned her or died with no reason, kingdomstreak had left her with nothing to live on, not even her own kits she would be able to stay, he had taken them, they where his, no mater what happened, feathertail couldn't bear to live any longer, watching her kits half siblings, grow up infront of her eyes, and kingdomstreak licking his mates face, their happy faces, the sun always shining on them, the light always following them, kingdomstreak would sit there and watch feathertail die watching those kits, and her kits live to see all of it, watching there mother in pain everytime, every second, feathertail was going to lay down and die just watching them. Feathertail smiled at kujostream, her tears streaming down her face, she still smiled, she walked out of the nursery, the cold snow hitting her small tabby paws, I love you kujostream she whispered silently, she ran off toward the river, she sat and the edge, her tears dropping ever second, oh starclan don't let me suffer, let kingdomstreka have all happiness for him, let his life, be full of love with aprrowtail, but I can't bear to watch, my soul my life be ripped out of me, every second, let me die, let me fall asleep, let me never watch up she whispered as she stared at the white blank sky, as the snow fell down from the peaceful sky, her blue eyes sparkled, the light bright, as she smiled her tears running down her face, she was praying, her silent thoughts to herself, she let out a sorrowful song, her voice rining out into the soft air lovingly, her breath showing, as sparkles flew out, so peaceful and sad. ((don't worry she doesn't Die ))

[Iceface]

"Shh!" Icekit piped at Hollykit...pay very quietly he mewed, and winked at the kit. Keeping one ear on the conversation between Kujostream and Feathertail. He saw Feathertail get up suddenly and head out leaving the other two kits. Lowering his belly to the ground he slinked off behind Feathertail.

[Knightwarrior™]

Kujostream skidded to a halt infront of Icekit, "Stop!" he hissed glaring down at the kit, "Watch them for me," he said more kindly. He took off running after Feathertail.

[feathertail]

[glow=white,2,300]Feathertail still looked at the sky, her eyes bright. Why did you have to leave me kingdomstreak, why I gave all of my love to you, and I get thrown away, why does everything bad happen to me, why does sparrowtail not see that she is too killing me, softly but so hard, he's killing me softy as he told me he loved me, he's killing me softly as he shows she love to sparrowtail, he's killing me softly having some other she-cats kit's, I hate you "kingdomstreak", she yowled the last part, she broke down, she was now on the ground, she stood up shaking her paws, shaking, "Why I loved you so much and you desert me..." she trailed off as she slipped her paws into the water, "My life has always been shortened" she whispered, and sunk into the currents of the freezingf water, she grabbed on to a rock, and pulled herself out, water, and ice on her fur, her eyes blank, her thoughts blank, as she stubbled to a bramble thicket, she curled up, and lay there thinking, "How could he say he loved me, and the next minute he dumped me, I loved you so much, it hurts so badly for him to do this, my heart was full of love, and that was all I could offer, I gave it to him....why can't he see he's killing me softly" she whispered shaking, she wanted to be alone, she wanted to go home, and die, she wanted to let go, but all her heart was gone, and only had little to offer kujostream, "He said he loved me" she whispered shaking, she got up, "I loved him to, and would never leave him" she meowed, now walking down the edge of the river, with ice gathering on her silver starlit pelt.[/glow]

[Kingdomstreak]

Kujostream raced to the river. Frantically he searched for Feathertail, his eyes roaming from side to side. He found her in the water than walking silently down the riverbank. He yowled at her. "Feathertail! my love, stop what your doing!" he cried. He raced toward her, as fast as his long legs could carry him. He halted in front of her using his head to push her back, "Feathertail if you do this, you will kill me! I will die because I wouldn't be able to live wothout you, why do you do this to me??"

[Iceface]

Icekit groaned he couldn't hear Kujostream and Feathertail. But I warrior HAD given him an order and his martial pride in wanting to become an apprentice shown threw. "Ok Hollykit have you ever played "Leap over the Cat?" He would have to make things up as he goes but it might buy time for the warrior cats.

[feathertail]

Feathertail looked up to him, her pelt dripping wet, "I hate my life" she whispered her body shaking as the cold wind blew at her. "I can't live with myself knowing I was an awful mate" she looked at the flowing water, "I just feel, I wont ever be good for anyone" she whispered, and tried to push forward, "I can't live...knowing I'm never good for anything" she whisperd pushing past him, her slim pelt cover with little bits of ice.

[Kingdomstreak]

"You can become a great mate, try again! A new life with me will show through, you will do great. Don't leave your kits, think about them...or once..instead of yourself,"

[feathertail]

"Do you think I don't think about them...I think about them day and night hoping they won't end up like me!" she snapped at him, her neck fur bristling, "I have tried to have a new life, but cats like kingdomstreak hold me back!" she meowed again looking away from his face.... "You know....I actually need to here the reason....cause hiding it away from me....will just hurt me...and if you wont tell me...I'll ask some other cat that knows....if I don't know what happened from the past I'll never let it go" she meowed looking at the ice forming around her wet paws."sometimes I wish, I just never met kingdomstreak...so I could live with happiness with you!" she meowed looking into his blank eyes, 'I want to start a new life with you....but I need to know a way to let kingdomstreak go...' she thought.

[Kingdomstreak]

[glow=blue,2,300]["HE is the past Feathertail!' he snapped back his eyes betraying his sadness and love for her, "You just need to let go of him! He did not love you.....he jumps from she-cat to she-cat never to stay in one place for long. But Sparrowtail...she is different than you of any of the others. His eyes glow with the warmth and love for her than ever. He never once loved you Feathertail... but I do. I'm not lying," he stepped towards her, willing her to believe him. He did love her, but she didnt realize that if she ever left him, his big heart would shatter into millions of little pieces. They could only be picked up by her.... one by one.[/glow]

[feathertail]

She sighed turning her head to the iced river, tears streaming down her face, "That's all I needed to know from you! that's all it takes for me to let him go" she meowed looking back at him her eyes where filled with warmth, she pushed her muzzel against his, her purring so loud, her furr bristleing with happiness, "That's all I needed to know" she whispered, her heart thumping once more as the ice around it shattered. She felt like a free spirit flowing around her, her icey cage that had held her in, the same heart that loved kingdomstreak shattered, her face didn't look so tired, and weary, her fur had the same shine to it that it had when she was happy and full of life, her eyes bright with love, her perky smile came back as she gazed at the cat that she loved, the only cat that has ever loved her... she felt the same warmth that she had felt when she was with her family, the same love they gave her when she was young.... the love that she would give to kujostream.

Feathertail licked his face with warm wrasps, and gentle as can be, she turned direction to match shoulder to shoulder with him...her tail twined with his. She felt happy once more.

[Knightwarrior™]

[glow=blue,2,300]Kujostream felt relived to see her back to her old self again. He leaned beside her and he started to walk slowly back to camp, back to their daughters.[/glow]