Concerning Brownie's Away

[xx the brownster]

Hello guys.

I am currently going through a lot right now between school and my recent break up with my boyfriend whom I dated for over two years.

In the last few days, I've realized my co-dependance on things-- most importantly my boyfriend-- and how much I despise being co-dependant. I've always been myself, but recenty because of David [they boyfriend] I've found myself depressed with no self-confidence.

This is not okay with me.

I've decided that I need to find out who I am and fix the problem. I've decided before I can move on I need to find out who I am and what I want in this life then I can move closer towards being the true me and dealing with my independance. Over the last five months I've been very distant from everyone because of David and I realize now he WAS the reason.

We broke up for personal matters, some of you may find out, but please do not ask. It's actually humiliating.

Because of this-- I will be sour and humiliated for a while, so I will not be for a few days until I can find myself and realize my true personality, not the one David created-- the shy, cold personality that's honestly been controlling my body. The derpression I've felt is finally over-- and I can move on with my life. With you guys and my friends at school. I have my two best friends [and the entire school] behind me and I know you all will be too.

Thank you for understanding, I feel as though my true personality was only ever shown on this site because you all showed me great love expecting nothing in return.

In real life, I found myself distant, not talkative and scared that if I did something, I'd lose David.

I no longer have this problem-- I'm moving on with my life and regaining my independance and loyalty to everyone I love.

I will find myself.

Thank you for respecting my decission.

- Brownie

[Ferny]

Good luck Brownie. ^^ -hug- Finding your self seems, complicated. I myself have small depression breakdowns, so I wish you good luck and give you hugs.[/color]

[x-xDarkyy [+] Buddiiesx-x]

♥
i`ll miss you,
but i`m sure we all understand on some level,
cause i know i do..
so take all the time you need
&
definitely don`t feel guilty..
you`ve taught us well!
the site won`t die ;]
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| | all my loving_i will send to you | |
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[xx the brownster]

Thanks.

Hey guys. Just checking in.. I'll be leaving. I had a better day today, but then began to feel myself losing it again... I'm getting there. Today, during school, I've been the happiest I have been in a while. I'll find myself soon. Keep you all updated!

I think after this weekend, I'll do better.

[nightiee]

hey brownie.

you go girl, seriously. don't let him bring you down. not to say he was horrible or anything, but just that i'm glad you've made this decision. my friend is going through some similar things right now and honestly, she is a mess. but she's getting through it and i'm glad you are too. life's too short and too great for it to be ruined in one relationship. be yourself, have fun, and remember we're always here for you !

take as much time as you need dear <3