Post by Blackie on Nov 23, 2009 1:00:50 GMT -5
So, I know that I have been totally inactive lately, and I apologize. I wish I could say its because this totally wonderful thing has happened to me and dominated my life, but that would be lying to you and indulging my fantasies who are even now plotting to throttle me for my numerous flaws. 
What's a girl to do?
The real reason I can't get on so much is because I've been terribly busy and when I'm not busy I'm depressed because I haven't been busy with anything useful which wipes out my muse. I can't seem to pick myself up right now even though the idea is immensly appealing. And after having my cat die, I'm even more put under even though I know I can keep going. The problem I have, is if I do get back on my feet and be happy and brave I have no one to care enough about me to share it with. That sounds so selfish. Yeah, sure, when I'm happy and brave I can find someone to share with me. Unforutnately, I don't find. I follow and catch crumbs. Stupid. -hits self- Man, I am so tired.
Anyway, I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm sorry I'm behind, and I'll do what I can to catch back up. Please pray for me. Pray that God will bless me and put people as wonderful as all of you guys in my life and help me find a job so that I can feed my pets before another one dies. -.- I love all of you. I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have you guys to complain at and write with. =]
this is getting too hard to take
but i already knew how indifferent you were
but for once can't you do something for my sake
atleast before i fall down and break
its at times like this i wish you were here
so i dress myself up and make an effort
but by the time i turned around and saw you were gone
i was stuck on myself singing lame songs
i know i'm whirled up with just me
its my world and if you're here it better be
because you just noticed an apology
was yours to deliver
-awkward poem to be continued ]
What's a girl to do?The real reason I can't get on so much is because I've been terribly busy and when I'm not busy I'm depressed because I haven't been busy with anything useful which wipes out my muse. I can't seem to pick myself up right now even though the idea is immensly appealing. And after having my cat die, I'm even more put under even though I know I can keep going. The problem I have, is if I do get back on my feet and be happy and brave I have no one to care enough about me to share it with. That sounds so selfish. Yeah, sure, when I'm happy and brave I can find someone to share with me. Unforutnately, I don't find. I follow and catch crumbs. Stupid. -hits self- Man, I am so tired.
Anyway, I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm sorry I'm behind, and I'll do what I can to catch back up. Please pray for me. Pray that God will bless me and put people as wonderful as all of you guys in my life and help me find a job so that I can feed my pets before another one dies. -.- I love all of you. I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have you guys to complain at and write with. =]
this is getting too hard to take
but i already knew how indifferent you were
but for once can't you do something for my sake
atleast before i fall down and break
its at times like this i wish you were here
so i dress myself up and make an effort
but by the time i turned around and saw you were gone
i was stuck on myself singing lame songs
i know i'm whirled up with just me
its my world and if you're here it better be
because you just noticed an apology
was yours to deliver
-awkward poem to be continued ]
