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Post by Meerful on Apr 22, 2007 18:34:57 GMT -5
A drooping tail, mouthful of dust, and eye full of sorrow, a dirty mud caked she cat with the dullest eye you'd ever see, made a great deal of effort to place each limping staggering pawstep forward. Her heart, used to be made of steel, seemed so fragile, that even the tiniest word would make it shatter into a thousand pieces even tinier. Of course, her ragged pelt hung over her bones, her face vacant of everything except ancient sorrow and grief. Words played across her mind and floated in her subconscious vision.
I've gone too many nights with, to suddenly be without.
And then one last word. Splinter?
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Post by Cinder.and.Flightfall on Apr 22, 2007 19:01:11 GMT -5
Cinderwing was patrolling the WindClan border. She was on her side of it. In her jaws were two plump mice that she barely managed to catch. Just as she was about to turn back she saw a farmilliar shape.
"Meer?" She whispered. Cinderwing walked forward. She gasped. Was Meer hurt?
"A-Are you ok?" She mewed.
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Post by Meerful on Apr 25, 2007 13:52:49 GMT -5
Two mute ears perked up, but not because they heard, but because they felt. Meer felt everything, a rustle of leaves, a sigh of death, the small steps of a kitten, and words coming from deep within someone's chest as their vocal cords vibrated and refracted the air. A slow and dreary eye looked up at a beautiful she cat with two fat mice. Her dry mouth watered, but she kept her jaw tight. Those are for her and her clan. Meer told ordered herself to remain vigilant. After a quick sigh, she replied. "Sure" Her voice cracked.
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Post by Cinder.and.Flightfall on Apr 25, 2007 15:56:14 GMT -5
Cinder walked ovr to Meer. Her blue eyes held worry. She thought for a moment.
"Here" She mewed dropping a mouse and pushing over to Meer with her paw. She sat down.
"What happened?" Cinderwing mewed.
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Post by Meerful on Apr 27, 2007 16:01:26 GMT -5
Meer took one look at the mouse in front of her, ignoring her instinct and urge to eat. Her tongue stuck to the roof of her mouth that was tightly closed as she locked her jaw. You're too tough for that, who needs food anyway? She reminded herself, again thinking of Cinderwing and her clan. She loves her clan more, they should eat first. Meer firmly warned herself. She relaxed her jaw a bit. "I- I'm nothing anymore. Life just wasn't cut out for me. Others fear me, and they fear how I live. Yet, I have loved too fiercly and cared with might, to be fearful of the night" Meer whispered.
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Post by Cinder.and.Flightfall on Apr 27, 2007 16:17:44 GMT -5
"I dont fear you" Cinderwing mewed. She pushed the mouse closer.
"Eat" She mewed sternly "And don't worry, I can catch more"
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Post by Meerful on Apr 27, 2007 16:21:29 GMT -5
Meer scoffed, and edged away from the mouse, fighting herself, and her body that shook with hunger. Her eye shut tightly, and she replied to Cinderwing. "Is that s-so?" She tried to say, but ended up shaking, almost convulsing. The hunger was beating her with spasms, and now, it seemed to have turned into a terrible aching mind numbing pain in the pit of her body, expanding outwards so that it just nearly toppled her over. Nausea swept through her, and she heaved a few dry heaves. Meer coughed, cleared her throat, and struggled to regain posture.
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Post by Cinder.and.Flightfall on Apr 27, 2007 16:25:11 GMT -5
Cinderwing felt worry pierce through her body. What was happening? She knew one thing. Meer needed to eat. But if she refused... Cinderwing shuddered. She didn't know what to do.
"Please eat" She mewed. Cinderwing walked over to help support Meer up.
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Post by Meerful on Apr 27, 2007 16:28:30 GMT -5
Meer backed up, baring her long white teeth into a horrendous snarl. It was the single most menacing soudn she could make, and even she could feel it as it ended so unprudently with a hiss that was almost a growl. "I wont eat any of it. Y-you need it more than I do, w-what about your p-p-precious clan?" She sneered the last word, hatred turning her already venomous voice into acid. Her body did another thing without her tellign it to, and she went into a fit of coughs before she laid her body on the ground, thinking of how Splinter never made her do anything she didn't want to.
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Post by Cinder.and.Flightfall on Apr 27, 2007 16:30:27 GMT -5
Cinderwing sighed.
"Well what do you want me to do then? I dont need it. You need it" Cinderwing mewed. She sat down.
"Just take a bite" She mewed. Maybe if Meer got a taste, she would have more.
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Post by Meerful on Apr 27, 2007 16:35:35 GMT -5
Meer sternly shook her head, she had absolutly no intentions of biting into the flesh of that mouse caught by a clan cat. It was like torture. On one hand, there was the thirst, the overpowering hunger and thirst for food, the other, a hatred for anything caught by the clans. The clans were what made her into a deformed mess. A voice spoke to her in a greedy tone. Kill the stupid clan cat Meer, we can just eat her Meer groaned. Auseek. Auseek was a split personailty, like a conscience in her head, and it always tried to make her do the wrong thing.
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Post by Cinder.and.Flightfall on Apr 27, 2007 16:37:47 GMT -5
Cinderwing sighed.
"Well, what do you want me to do then?" She mewed.
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Post by Meerful on Apr 27, 2007 16:41:46 GMT -5
//Auseek is a voice inside her head.//
Meer stuck her tongue out at herself, and growled. "Just shut up! I'm not going to kill anyone okay? Just go back to where you came from and leave me alone! You don't even like me!" She screeched. Of course, she knew Cinderwing had no idea who she was talking to, but if Cinderwing left, then she would be alone to fight with herself, even though she needed a friend right now.
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Post by Cinder.and.Flightfall on Apr 27, 2007 16:43:54 GMT -5
((Oh ok))
Cinderwing stared at Meer. What did she mean?
"Uh.. I didn't ask you to kill anyone" Cinderwing mewed "Who are you talking to?" She felt slightly awkward now. Was Meer yelling at her?
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Post by Meerful on Apr 27, 2007 16:51:28 GMT -5
Auseek began shouting in her head. "No! No! No! I don't, I wont, I can't! Cinderwing is nice, she may think I'm insane, but I wont kill her over it! Shut up Auseek! No!" Meer clawed at the ground as her mental 'friend' began to threaten her, torture her with words and pictures of her past. Meer couldn't take it. Splinter had done this, hadn't he? He left her to rot, and she went insane. This was his fault, so why did she still care so much? "Cinderwing, please, don't leave..." She whispered, panting on the ground with her front leg sprawled out ifnront of her, her back legs bunched up beneath her.
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Post by Cinder.and.Flightfall on Apr 27, 2007 16:53:07 GMT -5
"I wont" Cinderwing mewed. She felt worried though. What was going on?
"Meer what's wrong?" She mewed, her voice was worried and fearful.
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Post by Meerful on Apr 27, 2007 17:02:02 GMT -5
Why wont you ever just listen to me? Hello! I'm part of you too, so I can make you do what I want! Auseek shouted, her voice ringing in Meer's head. "Is that so? Then why am I still in total control?" She challenged the voice, mock creeping into her tone. Then she turned to Cinderwing. "Auseek. She is part of me now. Auseek wants things, and tries to make me do them. She only leaves when I have enough strength to tune her out." Meer explained.
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Post by Cinder.and.Flightfall on Apr 27, 2007 17:04:59 GMT -5
"Oh" Cinderwing mewed. So Auseek must be like a consciounce(Sp?), and evil consciounce.
"You never had her before, how did you get her now?" Cinderwing mewed. She at least didn't think Meer had had Auseek before.
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Post by Meerful on Apr 27, 2007 17:10:50 GMT -5
Meer thought a moment, trying her best to tune out the evil voice. "Ever since Splinter left me. I never had these problems until emotions came and stole my life. I used to be a zombie, and I never complained, but now misery overwhelms me." She whispered.
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Post by Cinder.and.Flightfall on Apr 27, 2007 17:13:23 GMT -5
Cinderwing nodded. She remembered Meer once told her about Splinter. She never knew he left her. Cinderwing felt sympathy for Meer.
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Post by badgerpaw on Apr 27, 2007 17:23:17 GMT -5
"Who is there!!" hissed a shadow.
Badgerpaw slowly walked into the clearing.Badgerpaw's wide sholders made him look older then her really was, his black and white pelt glimmer soflt in the light."Meer- I havn't seen you in forever!!" |
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Post by Meerful on Apr 28, 2007 9:43:43 GMT -5
At the sound of a voice making a vibration, Meer stiffly turned to it. Auseek had left momentarily, or Meer would probably be rolling on the ground trying not to kill anyone. Immediatly, her eye brightened when she saw the new guest to their small get together. "Badgerpaw?!" She said, shocked. Hadn't he died or something? Meer shrugged to herself, and straightened up a bit.
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Post by badgerpaw on Apr 28, 2007 10:06:44 GMT -5
BAdgerpaw couldn't help but stare at how different Meer looked.As far a Badgerpaw could remember, Meer was a strong she-cat, who always was the first to start a fight.Meer had never looked weak in Badgerpaw's eyes...untill now.Now Meer looked frail and looked almost depressed,Then again.The past few moons had been difficult for almost every cat.Almost every one changed in one way or another,"Meer- You ok?" he spoke clearly so Meer could read this lips |
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Post by Meerful on Apr 28, 2007 10:22:04 GMT -5
Meer lifted her head to look at him, it had drooped odwn as she stared at the ground. Life had been like that to her. The ground had for some reason become more vitally interesting than anything else, or maybe it was just because it shielded her from thinking about things that would hurt her. "Why do you ask?" She mewed, it sounded pathetic. Of course, she had gotten past erading lips, now she just figured out what the vibrations of the air meant when someone spoke. It was easy for her.
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Post by badgerpaw on Apr 28, 2007 10:31:26 GMT -5
BAdgerpaw smiled,"First of all- You havn't gotten into a fight with me yet.Secondly, you look as if the world is on your sholders.Thirdly, you have arn't glaring at me- insted it looks like the ground hasta put up with your evil eye"HE joked.BAdgerpaw,though sad about the death of his beloveds- found out he was happier when he knew they still loved him.In Starclan."Come one, whats bugging you?" |
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Post by Meerful on Apr 28, 2007 10:34:08 GMT -5
Meer smiled, but it didn't touch her eye, it was pretty much an emotionless gesture. "Well. I think I've gone insane, and I'm not quite sure what to do with my life since everything I care about is gone from me. Splinter left me. Fragment left me, Niche and Steps Soft are growing up. Shard is gone. Life is nothingness to me these days." She mewed miserably. Badgerpaw was a nice cat, but he couldn't fix her problems... Could he?
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Post by badgerpaw on Apr 28, 2007 10:39:05 GMT -5
Badgerpaw smiled at Meer and flicked his tail as a gesture of thought.Badgerpaw didn't know how to help MEer, the only herb he knew how to relax was lavender and lavender wasn't going to bloom untill it warmed up alittle more."Well-Youv'e got me.I am not much of a help, you have Cinder over there, you have your loner friends, and you have Starclan" He meowed happly.He knew Meer and other loners thought Starclan was a story or myth, but he knew they were alive...or..not alive, but...there. |
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Post by Meerful on Apr 28, 2007 10:41:39 GMT -5
Meer shook her head. "No, not realy. You tel me, how do you cure a voice in your head that tells you to do thigns that are quite unnesacary?" Meer was a little shocked. Maybe Meer was worthy of being feared and loathed.
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Post by badgerpaw on Apr 28, 2007 10:46:48 GMT -5
BAdgerpaw sat down and begain to think,"LEts see now, there is no herb that will cure that.Yet...If you find someone you truley love you will feal strong around that tom.Them you might be able to push the voice away.Man, what is with me giving love help to everyone.Call me Badgerpaw, The Love King!" |
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Post by Meerful on Apr 28, 2007 10:48:26 GMT -5
Meer laughed. "Well, I don't see that ever happening. And I'm not going to call anyone 'the lvoe king' so let's just sit back and watch the past." She murmered, looking up at the stars that were twinkling dimmly as the sun went down.
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