Looking for Turtlepelt (Turtle&Meer)

[cougarpaw]

Turtle nodded, pain filling her eyes, at the thought of leaving the Clans forever for this. Doubt started to shadow her mind as she thought more deeply about it. She had just left today, maybe she could come back and nobody would notice, or had Cinderwing already told Brownstar. As she thought deeper, she couldn't bear it, she had to go back, she didn't belong here. "Nightfur, do you really want me back that badly?" she asked quietly.

[Meerful]

Meer's eyes widened with shock and pain. "You can't leave me! Who...Who will I go places with...?" Meer had grown attatched to Turtle's friendly face.

[cougarpaw]

(Ahh! I'm being absolutly torn in two! Should I go back or stay!)

Turtle quieted as sadness filled her eyes. She had two friends and right now she was being forced to pick from one or the other, because if she picked one, it would be impossible to see the other. She felt like yowling outloud, she didn't know what to do. "I-I don't know Meer, I'm being torn in two, Nightfur needs me right now, and so do you! What should I do!" she asked, working hard to keep her voice from raising to a desprate yowl.

[Meerful]

Mer pondered. "Nightfur, will you be our Thunderclan spy?" Meer didn't want to spill out her plans, but she did need a spy.

[cougarpaw]

Turtle's eyes unclouded and she made a decision. "Meer, I'm really sorry, but I have to go back to ThunderClan, and I'm taking back my old name Turtlepelt, I'm sorry Meer, I'll miss you." she mewed. Closing her eyes, Turtlepelt placed the black tip of her tail on Meer's shoulder. She knew Meer wouldn't be happy with her decision, but she had to go back to ThunderClan. "We can still be friends right?" she asked quietly, hoping the answer would be what she thought it would be.

[Meerful]

at first meer's eyes widened with shock. then with anger and the frenzied blood lust. "if you leave me, i will never care for you again, and i will rip yor throat out in my battle with the clans. i knew it if my mother couldn't like me, neither could anyone else. i wont think twice to kill you" meer's words stung herself, but it wouldn't be the frst time she killed someone she loved.

[cougarpaw]

OOC: *sigh* well, that didn't go over to well.

BIC:

Turtlepelt's eyes widened with shock and hurt as Meer said this. She had grown so close to Meer, and now Meer just hated her. She began to feel tears well in her green eyes but shut them to keep them away. Taking her tail tip off Meer's shoulder, she turned her head away, hurt filling her mind and eyes.

[Meerful]

meers eys were already pouring. ''i dont want to hur you, but i willl if i have to. i do as my bloodlust tells me''

[cougarpaw]

"If you don't want to hurt me then why do you have to?" she asked, her voice hoarse with pain and sadness. Looking out of the den, she saw that the moon was nearly full, and its silver light poured through the darkness, spilling light into the makeshift den. As she looked back, she could see that her friend Meer was experiencing much pain and hurt too. Unable to bear seeing her friend like this, she turned her head away.

[Meerful]

''you no longer care! ou want more to be with nightfur. im just a bump on your fur. if this is how you want it, fine!" meers voice cracked. ''i knew i shoudnlt have let love back into my feelings, it hurt me again''

[cougarpaw]

Turtlepelts eyes glazed over in pain after Meer said this. She opened her mouth to say something to comfort Meer, to tell her that she did care, but then she slowly closed it, her belly clenching with hurt. She began trembling, despite the fact that the den was perfectly warm. She had just lost one of her closest friends, and it hurt more than when she was just a kit.

[Nightfur and Co.]

[glow=red,2,300]Nightfur opened her mouth to answer when Meer butted in. Then their fight ensued, and she was just sitting there, mouth agape. She was really coming back? But..."Turtlepelt, listen," she mewed. "I do want you back, badly, but...you've found a friend who cares for you as much as I do." She smiled softly. "You shouldn't have to make a desicion like this by yourself. I trust you to make the right desicion, but under pressure? No. You are a great warrior, and a great friend, but you need to follow your own heart, not someone elses. What is your heart telling you?"[/glow]

[cougarpaw]

[glow=LimeGreen,2,400]Turtlepelt shook her head. She didn't know why she had wanted to become a loner, and now she regreted the decision. But if Meer would kill her for going back to the clans, she was certain she wanted to go back to ThunderClan. Besides, she missed her friends there, and the life of a loner just wasn't right for her. "Nightfur, I'm sure I want to go back, and no one can stop me from going back." she mewed.[/glow]

[Nightfur and Co.]

[glow=red,2,300]Nightfur nodded. "Well, there's no use trying to tell you otherwise," she said, putting her head in her paws and closing her eyes. "No use talking about it anymore, either. Sleep; we go back to camp in the morning."[/glow]

[cougarpaw]

[glow=LimeGreen,2,400]Turtlepelt nodded, but didn't go to sleep. Instead, she waited untill she could tell Nightfur was asleep and then slipped quitely out of the den, carefull not to disturb her former mentor. Upon leaving the den, she silently clawed her way up a tree and sat on a branch, peering into the night.[/glow]

[Meerful]

Meer's eyes filled with pain. She knew she wouldn't be able to hurt Turtle. Meer had no other choice though, Skull would kill her if she didn't follow through. Hr eys were immediatly filled with anger. Turtle pelt left her forever. Meer felt her heart stab at her. She should have never done this. She shouldnt have been friendly, she shouldn't have communicated. Meer thought she lost her soul and had no feelings. She was wrong, and now shw was suffering with the worst hurt of all.
Out of hurt, she ran out of the den and plunged into a cold rushing stream. She let the water drench over her. Now all Meer wanted, was to die. Now, she felt hot tears more than ever, like the opposite to te freezing water that covered her small body. As much as she despised water, it was the only way to numb her body. She fell in the water with dispair.
She had lost her only friend she knew, the only cat she was connected with, the only cat she thought she would be able to count on, and Meer was sure that if things went as Sull had planned, she might have to sit and watch her friend die, or die as well.
Meer didn't think she could stand to watch. Yet, shouldn't she be used to this? Her life was filled with miseray anyways, so was this anytihng new, no, it was just another phase of torture starclan had for her.

[Nightfur and Co.]

[glow=red,2,300]Nightfur felt the two bodies leave and blinked sleep from her eyes. Where had everyone gone? With a grunt she stood and went outside. The cold bit at her like fleas in greenleaf, but she ignored it. She saw a body splashing around in the river...

"Meer!" she called. When she got no answer, she called again, "Meer, what are you doing?" She walked over, worried. "Meer?" she mewed. "Turtlepelt!" she yowled. "Turtlepelt, come quick! Meer's committing suicide!"[/glow]

[Meerful]

Meer felt her body be drifte along the smooth current. With a jerk, her body was pulled by the under current. She gasped for air, then exhaled. This is what she wanted. They couldn't save her...She hoped.

[Meerful]

//Erm...I don't think you should have posted that. Wait for Nightfur, and we're in loner territory..//

[fireice]

//Dang! OK, I'll delete it.//

[fireice]

//There, happy now?//

[Meerful]

//I never said delete, I said wait for Nightfur to reply. She's obviously the smart one. I'm stupid and a bad friend//

[cougarpaw]

[glow=white,2,400]Turtlepelt's eyes became instantly alert when she saw a flicker of movement come from behind the tree. Blinking her eyes blearily, she realized it was Nightfur. Then she saw a body thrashing in the stream. Next moment she knew, she heard Nightfur calling to her, warning her of Meer going suicide. I must of dozed off not to have seen or heard that! thought Turtlepelt, jumping from the tree and landing harshly on her paws. Dashing over to the stream, she stuck her head in without hesitation and made and attempt to grab Meer's scruff in her jaws.[/glow]

[Meerful]

Meer dodged, and yowled with a gurgled mew. "Get off!" She managed to choke before slipping out of her grasp.

[cougarpaw]

[glow=white,2,400]"No!" yowled Turtlepelt, she wouldnt let her friend die, if she did she would never forgive herself. Plunging her head into the icy water, she tried yet again to get a grasp on Meer's scruff, if she did, she would make sure it was a firmer grasp.[/glow]

[Meerful]

Meer began to lose consciousness, and her heart raced with anticipation.
She suddenly felt teeth sink into her neck. She owled, swallowing water while she was at it.

//Go to siggys, yur pic has half its leg missing, I can find you a better one if you like?//

[cougarpaw]

[glow=white,2,400]Turtlepelt felt her heart race as she got a good firm grasp on Meer's scruff. Her back paws scrabbling against the bank, she hauled Meer out slowly as she struggled with the weight. Feeling herself being succsecful, she backed further away from the stream, desprate to get Meer out.[/glow]

[Meerful]

Meer flopped like a fish, her sides heaving for air, and her throat choking with the water she swallowed. She was angry at Turtle pelt but in her heart, she was thankful.

[cougarpaw]

[glow=white,2,400]Turtlepelt dragged Meer untill she was well away from the stream. Then she pressed ever so lightly on her chest, to get the water out of her lungs, purring soothingly while she did so.[/glow]

[Meerful]

Meer coughed, and water emerged from her chest, and she breahed deeply, her consciuousness was queietly slipping away from her.